The little things

It's funny how the smallest things can completely transform your day.

I managed to faff around a bit too much this morning and ended up turning up late for bmf even though it's literally minutes from my front door. Instead of accepting defeat and going for a lazy Saturday I put my gym kit in my bag and headed off into town to finish the Xmas shopping and go to the gym.

Unfortunately the Christmas shopping wasn't that productive, although I ended up picking up lots of things for myself... Ooops. The best buy has to be the Miss Selfridge leather skirt with the zip up the front. Only one in the store, it fitted and it had like 20% off! It was a sign and I just couldn't ignore it. Same goes for V-neck jumpers for £10 in GAP, perfect for layering over a shirt for work (I'm always cold in the office, even in the middle of summer). You have no idea how happy seeing those v-necks made me, after months and months of crew necks only everywhere I looked.

Christmas shopping wasn't a complete bust however, and I now just have to buy for my older brother from both me and my mum and finish of my niece's present from my mum. Doing Christmas shopping twice is hard, I mean do you keep the credit for the best ideas yourself or do you let the other person have the glory?

I almost didn't make it to the gym as by this point I was laden with shopping and feeling sluggish, but I figured it would be silly not to as I'd carried my stuff all round town. Definitely the right choice, after an intense 25 minute kettlebell session (details below) I was feeling much better and energised. Exercise is definitely my therapy.

So there I was on my post gym high, refueling with turkey tacos at home and then BAM, crashing back down after 5 minutes on the phone with my Mum. Talking to her about her problems and not being able to do anything about them often leaves me feeling helpless and guilty. Today more so than normal for some reason. The combination of that and finding out my boyfriend stayed out til breakfast last night and is currently still drunk has left me with bouts of tears that I still can't shake. Being a girl really sucks sometimes.

But to quote Taylor Swift "I'm just gonna shake it off..." and try damn hard to bring this day back on track.

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Fitting it all in

Sometimes I wonder how everyone manages to do everything they are 'supposed to' and yet still look perfectly presented and appear calm and on top of it. On top of that they seem to never be turning down the glamorous or interesting invites they've had.

How?

Yes social media gives us a warped impression and we all show off only our most interesting side on it. But is that it? Is it that everyone else is better at portraying an evening of cooking, cleaning and shopping as a 'wardrobe cleanse' and 'spring clean'? Or is it that everyone has developed a better strategy to do these mundane tasks?

I think that splitting my time between a full time job, regular exercise (ok, some would call it more than just regular), seeing my friends and spending time at my boyfriend's doesn't really much time to do the everyday things that pile up. 

Sometimes it does feel like all I do is sleep, work, train, eat and repeat. 

Does anyone else every feel like this? Even on weekends and days off I have this massive list of things I *must* do in the back of my mind making me feel guilty for taking some time to actually relax.

From now on I'm aiming to find a better balance and make my head a happier place by saying no to everyone else and yes to some me time every once in a while guilt free.